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Where do I begin with this one? This is a drawing of my dad and I; the picture was taken back in 2006, a happier time, I suppose. I don't commonly think about my dad, I don't necessarily think about how much I miss him or how I wish I could see him again, so it was odd for me to sit and look through old photos. I don't really know my dad; I do, but I don't. My dad was physically part of my life for 10 years, the second half of those were not the best. Mental illness, self medicating for years, debt, heroin, arguments, threats, uncertainty. I feel like I remember the negative more because I was older, my parents couldn't hide it from me like they used to. At the same time, when he was sober and stable, life was good. Life was great, things felt complete. So here I am, 6 years since he died. I don't want to say his image is fading, but I know less of who he was than I did before. I see the good from some (the ones who praise him, who act like he was a saint), and I see the bad from others (the one who felt the pain). I suppose I no longer see my view, my memories aren't there anymore. I don't necessarily feel sad, the anger has faded, and I can't say I'm happy. Maybe I'll figure it out one day, but, for now, it is what it is.

Staying grounded is sometimes challenging to me, when think about how nature is perfect if our eyes would only see, it lifts me up till " immaStar" you see!

Welp, school got pushed back another week so I have the chance to upload one more time. My Discord is ExtraSaladPlease #9148 for anyone who cares.

A friend of mine asked me to do his portrait as a caricature. First time I’ve ever done a caricature..

My first time using cut paper, to add the branch. I think the chameleon is more comfortable now.

I've been here for 2 months and somehow I haven't drawn something spiritual. Time to switch from doughnuts to god. This is a drawing of an angel. I think I'm also going to start drawing my stuff like this. Let me know what you think.

pen on paper. I doodled this adorable illustration around the time Carrie Fisher passed. She was and still is one of my idols

It's our Mother of Jesus! Child Version! ^_^ Our order actually has a devotion to the Child Mary as well as the Child Jesus. It's all about being little and realizing our calling as Children of God. When I draw these little cutesy things it helps me to remember to be little, to not take things so seriously all the time. By the grace of God they give me joy. :) Remember, be little! Peace

Annette Hanshaw, look her up. She is wonderful!!! Now, I think some people think I'm tryna be rude doing this whole Joker-esque vibe, PLEASE, I'm not. I like and respect Joker (mainly the Mark Hamill one). The music that Annette Hanshaw sings is one that takes me back to a time where we get that nice old soul of old timey goodness, which is what Mr Mark Hamill's portrayal of the Joker made me think of. So, making an older photo of Annette Hanshaw look like the Joker form DC comics, to me, is a cool thing. Yes, I didn't draw the entire thing, this is just me drawing over the picture. Thank you, have a wondrous day!

This picture pictures me almost all the time

I live in central London, so I sometimes dream of a more nature-filled work space

I draw as discreetly as i can interesting faces in buses, cafes, parks. in general I get away with it, but sometimes fellow passengers, or patrons notice my moral trespassings, with a wink.

some creative work on fishes in lock down time

I've been spending a lot more time on Pinterest and a lot less time outside

Feeling spring. Micron pens & gouache on bristol.

My son has been asking me to draw him, so I attempted it during naptime. He still moved every 10 min, though!

102 years ago, another pandemic raged across the globe. My latest comic is all about what we can learn from the 1918 “Spanish Flu” (written by Sarah Mirk + Eleri Harris). Check out the rest of the story on The Nib! thenib.com/1918-spanish-flu

Covid-19 caused several cases of racist actions around the world. It's time to stop!

This a figurative inspired abstract sketch using layers of pencil crayon. I wanted to express an individuality and togetherness at the same time. I also wanted to experiment with space, shape and depth.

Something I do all the time. Forgetting to hit record is also annoying...

In these times family matters.

#Quaran-time of my life Posted this with some other sketches on my site: ainsleyknott.com

Colored pencil drawing on bristol of a golden pothos clipping in a glass of water. Visit https://youtu.be/5MZRA0jmGD4 for a time lapse video of the making of the drawing.

trying pixel art for the first time.

These are interesting times. Everything comes slowly these days.

Im so sorry! I needed time away from art lol. This will mark my posting week due to spring break! Thanks for the support!

Well... My school got closed for 2 weeks due to COVID-19. I think that the virus is a relatively serious thing, but closing schools isn’t going to do anything. The virus will still be there when we come back. I’m glad for the break, but I know I will find myself bored at some point. This means a lot of random paintings and drawings :)

Tried drawing a dragon for the first time. Dont think I did too bad

It took 8 hours only because every little line meant something to me this time